Wednesday, September 12, 2012

¿La Vomitaría?

On the way from our house into town there is one convenience store (yes, one in a 30 minute drive).  It happens to be a place we had to stop a few weeks ago when Lucy was throwing up in the car.  Meanwhile, Lucy is in a Spanish immersion preschool, and has recently been asking how to say things in Spanish.  This is how the drive home from preschool today went.
Lucy: "How do you say tree?"
Me: "Arbol."
Lucy: "How do you say flower?"
Me: "Flor."
Lucy: "How to you say throw-up place?"
Me: "I have no idea."

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

Lucy's 9/11

I had a really interesting conversation with Lucy today about 9/11.  We passed a memorial ceremony happening at the local fire station and she asked what was going on.  In trying to explain it to her, I was stuck by the enormity of fear.  Not just the fear we all felt that day but of fear itself.

Lucy: "What's happening?"
Me: "It's September 11.  They're remembering this day because a long time ago, before you were born, something very scary happened."
Lucy: "What happened?"
Me: "Airplanes flew into buildings and killed lots of people."
Lucy: "Will they kill me?"

Fear.  For the first time, I felt 9/11 in a new way - as a mother.  "Will they kill me?" Tears welled up in my eyes.

Me: "No.  No.  I will keep you safe.  I will keep you safe."

It was enough to ease Lucy's mind and stop her questions, but it's keep me wondering about it all day.  Could I?  Could I keep her safe?  An entire nation was paralyzed by confusion and fear on that day.  I realized that if we were one of the families on Flight 175, and our plane had been hijacked, destined for tower 2, I couldn't.  I couldn't keep her safe.  My one deepest desire as a parent - for my child to survive - would devolve into fear.  Fight or flight.

As someone who has done extensive traveling and grown up as an American abroad, I didn't have the same level of shock on the day of 9/11 as many of my other American friends had.  I was 17-years-old.  I had seen anti-Americanism first hand in South America and knew that while we were unarguably the most developed and enviable county on earth, we also had a habit of acting like it.  Of being the playground bully.  So on an international level, I got it.  I understood why this was happening.  I understood why American foreign policy had left other countries mad at us.

But today, on a personal level, I understood something anew.  I understood the plight of every parent, of every "boot in your ass" American.  I understood fear.  Author and artist Elizabeth Stone once said, "Making the decision to have a child in momentous.  It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body."  The thought of my own daughter being unsafe ignited a primal feeling in me.  And in an instant I understood why so many people reacted the way they did on that day - fight or flight.  Because they believed they were unsafe.  That the attack on those towers was an attack on them and their families.  It was an "aha!" moment for me.  I had never seen it that way before.

Monday, September 10, 2012

The baby warrior game

Me: What did you do at preschool today?
Lucy: We pretended we were babies, and trees, and warriors.
Me: That sounds like a fun game.
Lucy: No! It's not a GAME! It's YOGA!

Thursday, August 30, 2012

Compound Words

Lucy has made a habit of combining words.  Some sound so good I might even adapt them into my own vocabulary.  Some of my favorites:
vanilla + granola = granilla
one-eye + cyclops = eyeclops
gallop + giddy-up = gally-up!

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

First day

It was Lucy's first day of preschool today!  The teacher told me she spent the whole morning on the couch saying, "I just need more time."

Tuesday, August 28, 2012

The farmer in the dell told me so ...

Me: Please eat your macaroni and cheese.
Lucy: No!
Me: Why not?
Lucy: Because the cheese stands alone!
(P.S. "Why not?" is always a horrible question to ask a child)

Thursday, August 23, 2012

Nemo Sprocket

The robot Lucy and I made out of duct tape and recycled materials. She's become the house mascot.  Lucy named her Nemo Sprocket.  This is going to be the pinata for Lucy's birthday party in October. I think a certain little girl is going to be terrified when we start beating it with sticks.